I know him. I know how he walks. I know how he flips his hair. I know him from afar and I could measure the distance It takes to stand in front of him and confess-and the measurement isn’t worth the risk. I know how he laughs, or how his laugh sounds like. I know what makes him laugh like a retarded seal. I know his circle of friends. I know his favorite color. I know his name. I know his sister’s name. I know his mother’s occupation. I know his favorite sports. I know the brand of his bag.I know him so much, that sometimes I discover that I don’t know him enough.
That day, I knew he’d show up and pierce right through the room. I knew he would take a nap at his chair. I knew he would eat lunch with his friends. I knew he would talk to girls like it’s his favorite hobby. I knew he would appear in the hallway. I knew he would take a walk. I know him well, and that’s wrong.
We don’t talk. Unless something is very much needed. The problem is, observing him is as much interference as I allow myself. I want the sensational euphoria to lift me and that could only happen when I talk to him. Every time I talk to him, the place becomes an inconsequential blur, and that’s beautiful. Everything about him is beautiful. And I’ll look at him every day like it’s the first time.